Tuesday, December 29, 2009
and if the line is busy, then try try again.
Call the Nestle Crunch Hotline at 1-800-295-0051, When you are asked if you want to continue in English or Spanish, just wait quietly for about 10 seconds and you will smile. Promise! Keep going and press 4. Listen to the options...then press 7. If you comment on this after listening, don't give away the surprise!
i had a horrific dream last night that i can't get out of my head... about an airman (maybe, a soldier, but i would guess an airman bc he was on a flying mission) who died in my arms. he was talking to me & telling me about his life and then he was gone. and it was so real. the whole dream was strange - the way it happened and what happened afterwards... i was flying around the country to try and find his family... but not in a plane... with a balloon. weird, i know. but a very intense dream for me for some reason. i wish i could stop thinking about it. he was so beautiful & sweet & brave. then gone. it hurt. wish. wish. wish. i dislike all this deploying.
Try as they might, no one's immune to misfiring and acting on the wrong clues and thinkin' it's time to redo and redo.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
i love rachael yamagata. i have for quite a while. this song is so intense. it's empowering & sad at the same time. i can't decide if it makes me feel strong or depressed. either way, i like that it moves me.
Smoke your cigarette, make your love. You pour blood in my heart, I can’t get enough. I’m drowning and you can’t decide.
It’s not about geography or happenstance, your need to fly and take a chance, your need to shine to emptiness and float on high and forever dance alone.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
an owl army. for an owl giveaway.
i'm really into owls right now. they're cute.
and they make me think of harry potter.
which i'm reading at the moment. book fiiiiive.
truth: i downloaded two hannah montana songs today.
truth: i like them.
(don't wanna be torn & i wanna know you)
someone brought me a three pound bag of gummi bears at work today. awesome? yes. then someone broke a candle and i had to go clean it up. glam.
You're fragile and you're strong. A beautiful and perfect combination.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
all my friends have great travel & family fun times planned for next week. i'm jealous. and i'm going to miss my cousin's wedding bc of work. i LOVE my job. i really do, but i wish i had a week off to hang out and do holiday things. oh well. i'll drink an eggnog latte at work. haha.
oh, life it seems the struggle between what we see and what we do. i'm not going to change my ways just please you or appease you.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
“i would like you to know that if we ever break up (which will probably happen, since that’s how these sort of things usually work) there will always be that part of you i love. i know that sounds cliché and dumb. though i won’t always be in love with you, i will always love that part of you that made me feel completly comfortable in my own skin. that part of you that could make me forget about any of the shitty things in my life. and how you made me realize that i am capable of loving someone and someone is capable of loving me.” via leslieemkirchhoff
i should have given you a reason to stay.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
I'd really be perfectly fine with any version of Romeo and Juliet that doesn't have so despairingly lugubrious an end. Get that boy some ipecac and let's have ourselves a happily-ever-after. - Hanneke Van Dykei know that it's not easy, but you love me. you won't leave me. every little star it starts somewhere.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I'm home. I made gingersnap cookies. (They are delicious.) All the candles in my room are lit. (It smells good in here.) And I'm drinking the never ending bottle of Wandering Grape. (It's a Malbec-Merlot blend.) And I'm listening to Bon Iver & Nada Surf & John Mayer. (They don't mmix, but I'm listening to them in succession.)
Today was nuts, but fantastic at work. Friday and Saturday will be nuts. And Sunday, too. But I get to see Tent Revival in the middle & hang with friends. Life is crazy. But good.
I'm trying to levitate. I'm trying to leave the ground. Trying to remember when I could fix anything with sound.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I think it's silly how much we let the opposite sex hurt us. And this goes both ways.
LORELAI: You know, there are very few times in my life when I find myself sitting around thinking, "I wish I was married," but today, I mean -- I'm happy. You know? I like my life. I like my friends. I like my stuff. My time, my space, my TV.
LUKE: Yeah, sure.
LORELAI: But every now and then, just for a moment, I wish I had a partner, someone to pick up the slack. Someone to wait for the cable guy, make me coffee in the morning, meet the stupid sink before it gets sent back to Canada.
I don't know what I'm yammering on about. I want to get married someday, but I guess for right now, I'm ok. Maybe it's just easier to be ok when the only people you find that you could be interested don't even live near you.
You must pull up the weeds before they take hold and throw them on the fire.
Don't believe those hungry liars.
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
in my pajamas. check.
eating sweet potato fries. check.
drinking beer. check.
watching the oc. check.
now i can wrap what i bought.
i still need a few more...
christmas is expensive.
but so much fun!
beautiful beat lift me up from distress
Thursday, December 03, 2009
Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh till your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing.
sometimes i think i regret trusting people & giving them the benefit of the doubt. but i don't. it's how i get those silly little life lessons that i hold onto ever so briefly, then forget about or let go of in just enough time for someone to surprise me again with their stupidity or lack of morals.
it's a nice vicious little cycle i've started for myself.
i don't know that i'll ever really "learn from my mistakes" or stop giving second chances (third chances are definitely out of the question though... )
who knows? not me. i'm never sure of anything.
Because I'm not scared, but I'd like some extra spare time.
first of all, i slept until 9:30. crazy.
(on my flannel sheep sheets)
i started my christmas shopping online.
i cleaned my room (ish) with gilmore girls in the background.
i hung out with brian -
we had sushi for lunch and starbucks before his flight.
evidently we fall in and out of sarcasm naturally.
i cleaned the bathroom and vacuumed and did dishes.
i got my laundry started.
found out that my manager won a regional award
(Reflection Award - for being amazing)
i went to dinner at nirlep with charles & myron -
bc nothing says i've missed you like indian food.
i heard about their cruise and tried Lion Stout.
i also pondered what to feed a vegan, no soy with gluten allergies.
i heard susan boyle sing i dreamed a dream...
it gave me chills.
i watched part of the grammy nominations
& ate some muddy buddys.
& watched gilmore girls
(i really liked when adam brody was on the show)
(and when rory dated bad boy jess)
while i waited to hear from the west coast.
then i went to bed around 11:30 or 12 and woke up at 8.
to have caffeinated granola & greek yogurt.
and i here i am. not too shabby, huh?
and here i give no credence to grammar.
... in heartbreak warfare.
Monday, November 30, 2009
This morning I rolled out of bed and ate Greek Yogurt with caffeinated granola. I lit my sensual amber candle and checked my email. It's been quite lovely even though I'm surrounded by piles of laundry and deposits that need to be entered into the computer.
I think I'll make a cup of tea instead of dealing with that.
I'm glad this weekend is over. Really glad. I know that the rest of the holidays aren't going to be easy peasy, but I'm proud of our store (Bath & Body Works) and Christmas should be a cake walk compared to what we just did.
As far as Wholly Cow goes, I'm not really in charge anymore. I've passed the torch... onto VJ and back to my Mom. I work there about one day a week and do the paperwork. We'll see how this goes.
Happy Monday after Black Friday. The storm has passed.
everyone is exactly who they are
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Your challenge may be to put someone else first for a change as you are a fire sign who is very ambitious. Your challenges often have to do with your reputation. Problems with money can arise because of your impulsiveness.
You are a stubborn individual and it may be your challenge to admit for once that you are wrong. Loneliness is often a problem for this sign.
You tend to escape reality and, as talented as you are, you may be presented with situations in this life that force you to be more grounded. Health problems could present themselves. Love triangles are common and fidelity could be another challenge for you.
You are very inward looking and shy. Your challenge may be to overcome depression or a “woe is me” attitude. Mental health and relationship problems are common.
You are a very arrogant and ambitious individual and you may be presented with challenges in this life that force you to be a little less selfish and shallow. Financial problems are common with Lion type karma.
You are a very controlling individual who finds it difficult to let go. You may be presented with situations in this life that compel you to be less rigid. You may often be dealing with situations where you are not credited for your work or you feel unloved.
You are indecisive and you may be forced to make some tough decisions that are out of the ordinary to remedy your karma from other lives. You will learn not to blame others for your problem. The issue is to determine whether you are a martyr or a victim.
You can be obsessive and too concerned with sex. Your challenge may be to rise beyond the compulsive nature of your desires. You may also be tempted to dabble in the occult.
You can be wayward and concerned only about your own agenda. Issues of commitment could be challenging in this life if you are born under this zodiac sign.
You love money and acquiring possessions. One of your challenges may be realizing that money is not everything in this life. You might also be presented with issues that show you that “everything” does not have to be perfect for you to be loved.
You love to be free and to while away the hours in your own mind. Unfortunately, this leads to procrastination. You may face challenges that are the consequences of not being mindful or paying attention to what is important in life.
The Pisces zodiac sign is always looking for the other in their life time. The challenge might be how to learn how to be alone or you might face issues of coherency and addiction.
ah crap. good thing i paid off that vickie's card.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
5 Things in my room: lots of books, a cup of hot green tea, scattered cds, clean clothes in a basket, jean paul gaultier evian bottle
5 Things I’ve always wanted to do: skydive, drive a ferarri, travel down the california coast, MOVE, be financially independent & stable
5 Things I’m currently into: harry potter, fall-ish music, the retail season, candles, everwood on dvd
oh, and I, I say damn your mood swings, damn your mood swings. (Tegan & Sara)
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Odds - Mute Math
Blood Bank - Bon Iver
Hungry Liars - Portland Cello Project
Sticks And Stones - Dave Barnes
My Love Goes Free - Jon Foreman
The Weight Of Lies - The Avett Brothers
Cry On Demand - Ryan Adams
For You - Kalen Nash
Ain't No Reason - Brett Dennen
Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine
Wait Out The Days - Rocky Votolato
Fall Apart Today - Schuyler Fisk
Twenty Years - Augustana
I Still Care For You - Ray LaMontagne
Day Too Soon - Sia
Nightingale - Norah Jones
Lost Year - Mute Math
If Only - Fink
Skinny Love - Bon Iver
Half Life - Imogen Heap
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Monday, November 09, 2009
"When you don’t forgive someone, you let them park in your life forever. These people are like parasites that can suck the life right out of you and allow bitterness to rot you out. If you let these people and their actions haunt your thoughts, emotions, and spirit, you allow them to continually damage not only you but those around you, too." Pete Wilson
Monday, November 02, 2009
today i worked for 12 hours.
i tied floral wire & ribbons to 100+ products.
i named a christmas tree wilbur.
i was covered in glitter & looked like a disco ball.
i had a flat tire.
i now have a patched tire.
an old man gave me the finger for driving slow.
i got jacked up on dark reese's and cherry coke.
i drank starbucks via.
and listened to miley cyrus.
we made day and conversion.
christmas happened at bath & body works.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
i was counting on something that didn't happen.
when you get your hopes up high, they have a long way to fall.
it's ok. i'll get over it... get through it.
thank you to everyone who has been concerned. it means a lot.
i'm listening to our lady peace. its surprisingly calming.
i just want to get out. stuck inside of this. waiting for something else. waiting to exit.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I think I'll make cinnamon sugar pumpkin seeds today.
... I've been reading Rachael Ray magazines.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day." - Noah
bc it's hard. bc the movie isn't easy. bc it's not a simple fall in love movie. yeah, i know she dies at the end of a walk to remember, but that's nature. no one can help that. in the notebook, people have choices to make. they have to decide what they want. and that sucks. and for awhile, you're left hanging... wondering... will this love happen? will they live happily ever after? you don't know. they don't seem to know. it's tragic. and i don't like it bc that's what life is really like... decisions. waiting. tragedy. and sometimes there is a happy ending. and sometimes things still get screwed up.
and i don't like to be reminded of things like that when i watch movies like the notebook. i like living in a fairytale bubble for two hours. hmph.
i didn't like the notebook. i didn't even cry when i watched it. heartless, i know.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
and it's hard. and it hurts. and it forces you to face things.
and sometimes it causes you to break your own heart.
but that's the way it goes. that's what we're called to do.
phil wickham - true love (singalong)
You are ready to put on a real show today. Whether it's about expressing your feelings of love, pitching a business plan or doing some decorating around the house, you are tempted to go overboard with too much drama. Keep in mind that a bit of self-restraint might be exactly what is needed to maximize the progress you can make now.
i plan on doing all three of those today. with no drama. no no drama.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Today, my 6 year-old daughter was asking me questions about Santa Claus at dinner. My 13 year-old daughter was getting annoyed with all the dumb questions and simply told her younger sister that Santa didn't exist. Instead of being aghast and upset, my younger daughter just said, "Yea but neither does Edward Cullen!" My older daughter left the dinner table and I think its easy to say who won tonight. MLIA
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
i've learned the truth is, everyone you meet will hurt you at one point or another. you just need to decide who is worth the pain.
i saw a blog post today that said "people do not care about you as much you think they do" and it made me sad. and i don't think it's true. i care. i probably care more than you think i do. and sometimes it's weird bc i become so involved in people's lives - i want them to be so happy they explode even if they've upset me in the past. i might be angry or hurt, but i always care one way or another.
Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have. Love doesn’t strut, doesn’t have a swelled head, doesn’t force itself on others, isn’t always “me first,” doesn’t fly off the handle, doesn’t keep score of the sins of others, doesn’t revel when others grovel, takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, puts up with anything, trusts God always, always looks for the best, never looks back, but keeps going to the end.
Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit.
But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love. 1 Corinthians 13 (The Message)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
It was beautiful and cold and full of cheese and I ran three miles in the freeze. And I saw HANSON. Also, I have fantastic friends. Really. I'm glad we manage to keep in touch. PS. I need to go back to Chicago and spend some more time there. I think I will love it even more if I spend at least 24 hours in the city.
Work is nuts. As usual. That's ok. I do love it. Most of the time. Though I do look forward to the day when I only have one job.
I can't wait for Fall trip to Georgia. I hate Georgia, but I love my friends. And fall. I can't wait to combine the two again.
I'm on Harry Potter 4 of 7. Seven, right? This one is taking longer bc I have a lot to do right now. I'm going to Columbia tomorrow to visit Rachel and eat Bee Bim Bop. Two things I love.
Hum. Lots of stuff going on that is unsure. And things I can't talk about. And that I'm just waiting to see what happens with...
Still working on a fall playlist. It's doubled in size. Woops.
I've got the new Donald Miller book. Need to find time to read it.
My ipod geeked out on me today and I had to restore and start over. Shit. This is taking forever. If it had died, I would have gone out and bought a new one in the morning. No lie.
I ramble when I'm procrastinating. How about that?
"... these things should be organic... free range love." - Tupac Tony
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
"I feel hopeful and grateful. For a while I thought we had lost everything. It makes you want to love better and live better and treat people better." And she [Michelle Williams] adds, "There is a great Gloria Steinem quote—and I'm paraphrasing—'Become the man you want to marry.' I've taken that on. What qualities do I find attractive, and can I find them in myself? What am I missing? Can I be that for myself?" - excerpt from Vogue
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Every step I'm taking. Every move I make feels lost with no direction. My faith is shaking. But I gotta keep trying. Gotta keep my head held high. There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's the climb. - Miley Cyrus, The Climb
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Nobody cries, they just smoke and stare at their shoes.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
the road is blocked off and full of police doing investigating. i don't like this.
... better slip you an ambien.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Usually, when you come back from out of town, the week is always a little weird - you have to get back into the swing of things, etc. This was beyond that.
Retail nightmares. And personal catastrophes. It's too depressing to even go into detail here. I wanted to give up and leave this place and never come back.
At the end of the week, I was completely exhausted. I still feel slightly like a failure. I'm just trying to push through it.
B: its the weekend thoughand you're gonna be alright
I've experienced a lot of verbal therapy. It's been good. I've had quite a few people willing to listen and share my woes. I have good friends. Yep. And then that leads me to a whole other situation about my life and new people and the room I'm willing to make for them.
Are relationships supposed to just happen? Or do you have to work to make them happen? I know you have to work to keep them up, but should I have some sort of sparkly feeling on the inside when I know it's time? Or do I have to be patient and pour on the glitter myself?
Maybe I should just become crafty.
Anyway, I'm making a fall mixed cd. I'm also reading Harry Potter (finally - I'm on book 3). And I've been enjoying earl grey tea during the day. And Sleepy Time tea at night. That's all.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
LORELAI: Huh. You know what I just realized? Oy is the funniest word in the entire world. I mean, think about it. You never hear the word oy and not smile. Impossible. Funny, funny word. Poodle is another funny word.
EMILY: Please drink your drink, Lorelai.
LORELAI: In fact, if you put oy and poodle together in the same sentence, you’d have a great new catch phrase, you know? Like, “Oy with the poodles already.” So from now on, when the perfect circumstances arise, we will use our favorite new catch phrase.
RORY: Oy with the poodles already!
LORELAI: I’m telling you, it’s knocking “Whatcha talking ’bout, Willis?” right out of first place.
Monday, September 14, 2009
“Making your mark on the world is hard. If it were easy, everybody would do it. But it’s not. It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won’t. It’s whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it; whether you choose to persevere.”- Barack Obama
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
including (but not limited to): my Mississippi adventure, the new Donald Miller book, going to Wisconsin to see Hanneke, Chicago/Hanson, Fall trip to Georgia, decorating my store for Autumn, switching from summer home fragrance to fall home fragrance, the New Moon movie, wearing hoodies, actually reading all these silly Harry Potter books...
there is always more.
and, while i'm sure i'll be exhausted by the time 2010 rolls around (hello two retail jobs), i plan on making the most of what's left of 2009. shine on, friends.
I can see you came to rock in your blue jeans and white tank top.
Saturday, September 05, 2009
It's just something to think about, I suppose.
And I watched a girlie movie tonight, so I'm extra inquisitive.
I forget how much I love Death Cab sometimes.
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet.
"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours." - Ayn Rand
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
sleeping. yogurt. peaches. hemp seeds. vitamins. coffee. soy milk. irish cream. caramel. skim latte. hot. iced. (it ended up a hot skim latte with 1/2 pump caramel - if you were wondering) work. customers. candles. black amethyst. octagon. leaves. fall. scarves. hoodies. pumpkin spice. cider. crisp air. apples. doughnuts. more coffee. tired. hungry. smoothie. shea cashmere. wall move. pizza. chinese. pizza. chinese. pizza. michelob ultra amber. two slices of greek pizza. closing. store support. wait. wait. wait. coffee. driving. texting. pizza. tony. pizza. dogs. cherry garcia fro yo. email. texting. cleaning. pineapple orchid. sour skittles. blogging.
hydration. finish cleaning. make a to do list. read. sleep.
i like this blog. and this song. and i'm excited for fall.
Tonight, someone asked me where I saw myself in 5-10 years and I had no idea what to tell them. This was the first question of a three hour conversation.
So, now I'm thinking about lots of things. Yep. Good. Bad. All those things.
Btw. I'm reading Harry Potter and listening to the new Mute Math album.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
or it could actually be dead. i'm not sure.
mj and steve have been so kind to let me borrow one of theirs until i get my shit together. so thank you to them.
i saw post grad tonight with rachel. it was good. and cute. and kind of made me think about my life. and what i'm doing. and what i'm not doing. who i'm spending my time on. and who i'm wasting my time on.
and about my quirkiness. i'm weird, man. i hope someone finds it endearing one day.
all very interesting topics.
it's been a long weekend with some excellent highlights (dinner for charles's birthday) and some crappy stories, but i'm too tired for specifics.
i'm going to bed now. gotta get up super early for coffee.
... that really matters... we'll make the best of what's around.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
it was productive. and i am exhausted. but content.
ps. happy birthday charles and rachael! you're fantastic.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
stars - today will be better, i swear!
the decemberists - the engine driver
Sometimes, I'm afraid that I will just feel nothing after all the things that have happened - that nothing but a shell of myself will exist - because there is only so much a person can take before they become numb.
I hope that's not true though. I don't think it is.
When the worries of the world hold your feet and there's little left to believe in.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Sunday, August 02, 2009
“I like being on my own. Relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in the one of the most beautiful cities in the world, we might as well have fun when we can, and save the serious stuff for later.” - 500 Days of Summer
Friday, July 31, 2009
“I don’t expect the great lengths; I just expect them to keep up with the details and the small things. I can get by on a text message—a lot of girls can. That’s all we want is someone to text us in the morning and say, ‘Hi! Hope you have a fantastic day!’ And then call us as night. Super-simple. It doesn’t take yachts; it doesn’t take big flashy things. It takes just knowing that they’re there and care.” - Katy Perry (on guys & romantic gestures in Seventeen)
Thursday, July 30, 2009
That's how I feel right now.
I woke up too late to take my friend to the airport this morning. And yesterday I was half an hour late to my coffee date with some friends.
I've become unreliable.
There's an episode of Gilmore Girls like this:
CHRISTOPHER: Where were you?(There's an episode of Gilmore Girls for everything.)
LORELAI: Fruitlessly trying to rectify a ratty transgression.
CHRISTOPHER: Oh. You want some coffee?
CHRISTOPHER: Well, I know you well enough to know that when you say no to coffee, especially in the morning, all is not right in Whoville.
LORELAI: Very astute.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
- influence by mka olsen
- a new phone (ex. Samsung Gravity or something with a full keyboard & camera compatible with TMobile)
- cook yourself thin
- a cold brew coffee maker
- the oc on dvd
- cash (to pay off credit cards)
- gift cards (for retail therapy - target, gap, express, whole foods, itunes)
- and gas cards
- movie tickets to see post grad
- yet another fm transmitter
please and thank you.
Monday, July 27, 2009
“Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, valuable, but small. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven’t been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn’t it be the other way around? I don’t really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So goodnight, dear void.” - You've Got Mail
Saturday, July 25, 2009
I currently smell like Sweet Fig and Aragan. I pushed the product so hard on customers today that I convinced myself that I loved and needed it as well. I'm too good at my job sometimes.
I can't wait to get paid and have my 120k mile service done and for life to be normal (or at the very least to slow down).
Work in the A.M. Lalala. I hope I wake up on time.
Watch this video. It's fantastic. One. Two. Three. Four.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
"You want to know what living life to the fullest actually is? It’s waking up on a Monday morning with no complaints. It’s knowing you always deserve to laugh. It’s doing what feels right no matter what. It’s doing what you want to no matter how stupid you look. It’s about being yourself, because no one can tell you you’re doing it wrong."
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
i often think it's best for me to not get too attached to people. they have a tendency to leave. i would like to leave next time. i want to be the one who ends something. who says goodbye. is that crazy? mean? selfish? maybe.
i want to go to california.
every time i watch the oc, this happens.
it never goes away. it just gets stronger. and right now it's on demand. oy.
i would like all of these seasons on dvd please and thank you.
Ryan: What kind of music do you listen to?
Marissa: Right now, punk.
Seth: Yeah, I am sorry, but Avril Lavigne doesn't count as punk.
Marissa: Oh yeah? Well, what about the Cramps? Stiff Little Fingers? The Clash? Sex Pistols?
Seth: I listen to the same music as Marissa Cooper? I think I have to kill myself.
california. californiaaaaaaaaa. here we come. oohhh.
Monday, July 06, 2009
orange dulce tea with raw sugar and cream
flipsides - half pretzel & half cracker
"into the wild" radio on pandora
crossing everything off my to do list
i will not take the time to list the things i disliked because i do not want to dwell on them. and tomorrow is another day. with a whole new list of things to get done.
i want frosted animal crackers. (i am so susceptible to advertising and things with sprinkles...)
Saturday, July 04, 2009
i don't love customers who don't like to leave the store after we've closed. i don't understand them. they make me agitated.
strawberried peanut butter m&m's are good in theory. the execution of the idea left me wanting waffle fries and a big bottle of water. i dunno if that makes sense at all.
i was reading searching for god knows what at the starbucks on garners ferry the other day and i started to cry when i got to the chapter about jesus. he was so good to people. why can't we all be like that? our motivation is so screwed up sometimes.
i noticed things i missed about columbia while i was there. people. places. the conversation i had and that i overheard. but mostly i think i miss the free time. and i missed charleston. weird.
also, mute math - stall out. very good. always.
Friday, June 26, 2009
(from bright shiny morning. he's lied before he might have done it again.)
you say, baby, i only want to make you happy.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Dear Brothers & Sisters,
Whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything.
God blesses the people who patiently endure testing.
(paraphrased from James 1 - I found this in an old journal, but it's a mish mash of different versions of scripture and perhaps the person speaking to me.)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
- If you’re smiling right now, you’re doing something right.
- It’s not so much what you say that counts, it’ how you make people feel.
- The biggest mistake you can make is doing nothing because you’re scared to make a mistake.
- No matter how it turns out, it always ends up just the way it should be. Either you succeed or you learn something. Win-Win.
- Freedom is the greatest gift. Self-sufficiency is the greatest freedom.
- If you catch yourself working hard and loving every minute of it, don’t stop. You’re on to something big. Because hard work ain’t hard when you concentrate on your passions.
- It’s not about getting a chance, it’s about taking a chance. You’ll rarely be 100% sure it will work. But you can always be 100% sure doing nothing won’t work. Sometimes you just have to go for it!
- Complaining is like slapping yourself for slapping yourself. It doesn’t solve the problem, it just hurts you more.
- The one with nothing to hide is always the one left standing tall.
- You can press forward long after you can’t. It’s just a matter of wanting it bad enough.
- There’s a big difference between knowing and doing. Knowledge is basically useless without action.
- In work and business, when they need you more than you need them, you have succeeded.
- Everything that happens in life is neither good nor bad. It just depends on your perspective.
- We are all weird. And life is weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we call it love.
- True friendship and true love do sustain the tests of distance and time.
- You can’t change who you are. You can only change what you know and how you apply this knowledge.
- It is okay to be angry. It is never okay to be cruel.
- Even when you feel like you have nothing, someone else likely has far less. Find them and help them. You’ll see why.
- Having a thousand credentials on the wall will not make you a decent human being. But genuinely helping one person everyday will.
- Remember, change happens for a reason. Roll with it. It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
and my jeans have a hole in them.
so i went shopping and ate chocolate.
and i'm listening to owl city because my employees say it's music that "just makes you smile". i particularly recommend : hello seattle, west coast friendship, strawberry avalanche.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
but you don't know what for.
you have everything you need right here.
still you want more.
this is how we are fading.
you hold on to yourself.
you're afraid that you might get left behind.
and so you hide your eyes.
you're afraid that the lie will make you blind.
but it's time. it's time to shine.
yes, it's time to believe in what you know.
time to believe in what you know.
time to believe in what you know.
and you don't need strength to be strong.
Alexi Murdoch, Shine
Thursday, June 11, 2009
i am kind of strange
wear a mask & use different voices
i like to dream, as you can see
the power of a clean car (this is true)
leave your town & see the world
i would like it here (+ caffeine, of course)
a gypsy blog
It's not a lover I want no more and it's not heaven I'm pining for, but there's some spirit I used to know that's been drowned out by the radio!
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
literally. all of them.
luckily, i'm resilient and i like strangers.
long day. good day. weird day. i'm tired now.
... you're putting on your shoes in the dark. i bet you never though leaving me would be so hard.
Friday, May 22, 2009
right now i am highly caffeinated and getting ready for work - both of them. then tent revival at the tin roof. yep.
also, "I had an adrenaline rush. It's very common. You can google it." yeah. i'm never gonna get tired of that line.
i bought the new magic hat summer ale. haven't tried it yet. hope it's good. gotta go. tgif.
Monday, May 18, 2009
A friend recommended this song to me. and it's not particularly catchy, but I like the lyrics.
"Of course you’re gonna get your heart broken. And it isn’t just gonna happen once, but a lot. That’s just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better the next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you’ll be a stronger person because of it. Then, one day, someone will come along, and it’ll all pay off, and no one will ever break your heart again."
(both picture and quote are via : of vice and men)
sometimes when things seem terribly wrong or i’m highly offended or life seems to be falling apart, i try to remind myself that “surely this is not the best God has planned for me.” and then i breathe a little bit easier and make a plan to move forward.
worry about nothing. pray about everything.
Friday, May 15, 2009
me : nope. no boyfriend.
customer : good. [leans into whisper] boys. they're all pieces of shit these days.
me : [laughs] agreed.
customer : they don't care and they want no responsibility.
me : you know, i think you might be right.
customer : i know. my oldest daughter lucky. she find good man. nice man. makes a lot of money. my youngest daughter, she wants none of it. not worth her time. not enough good men left. you take care of yourself first then maybe find someone good.
me : yes sir.
... turning into something you are not.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
When did it become socially acceptable to ask someone out via text? And really, please tell me, when did it become socially acceptable to tell someone you want them via text? I mean, really? Am I supposed to swoon because you tell me you want me through nonverbal communication? Knock me off my feet, Romeo. Yes, please, take me now. You can't come up to me and tell me in person, but you want me to hook up with you? I don't care how hot you are. That's not gonna fly. I don't think so.
This is what we call a "red flag".
I'm jaded and cynical sometimes. I've had my heart broken a time or two. And I've done it to other people myself. But I still believe in happily ever after. I know I bitch and complain about never getting married, but I would rather wait forever than settle for a text booty call. Maybe I'm just confused because things like this don't ever happen to me. Is this normal?
When did relationships become so "easy" and technological?
What happened to regular dating? To going out and getting know someone? I just want someone to like me and my quirks and to want to spend time with me and to think about me when I'm gone. Someone who likes holding hands and going slow and hanging out at coffee shops and reading books. Someone who loves music and art and wandering. Is that too much to ask?
Maybe. But I can wait if I need to do that. Yep. I can wait.
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring. He said, marry me, Juliet. You'll never have to be alone. I love you and that's all I really know. I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress. It's a love story. Baby, just say yes.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
yes, when he asks you in for coffee, you should say yes. you should follow him in through the door. you should be polite and funny and a little weird, and he will find it endearing. he will.maybe i won't feel so afraid. i will try to understand. either way.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
“Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn’t mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It’s what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters. It’s the only thing that counts.” - The Last Kiss
... sounded like an alarm of impending doom to warn us that it's only a matter of time until we all burn.
Friday, May 08, 2009
picture: via : of vice and men (via : thresca)
"We don't have much, but we're happy."
And it's just money anyway, right? Right.