Thursday, March 30, 2006
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I'm so glad that yesterday is over. The rest of the semester is still going to suck, but yesterday I had two important tests, an access project and three hours of sleep. And it was cold and rainy and Gilmore Girls was a two hour marathon of reruns.
I'm so scared that I failed one of my tests which is completely unacceptable because I already failed one test in that class. And it's a major course. And I don't fail things. I just don't. My gpa is always good which in turn makes me good. I am my grades. (Or at least in my head, I am.) My mom and I had this conversation yesterday...
Mom: Erin, no one ever told you that you had to be perfect.
Me: Well, no one ever told me that it was ok to fail either.
Mom: I did. You just weren't listening!
Me: Oh. Well... Tell me again, then.
I still don't want to fail. It will be detrimental to my mental health.
I'm a modern girl, but i fold in half so easily when i put myself in the picture of success. I could learn world trade or try to map the ocean.
Alison and I got an apartment. The one on Henderson Street. Woot. We still need one subleaser (female) for my room this summer. Any takers?
I get a bit confused every spring -- I'm listening to lots of Death Cab, Rilo Kiley, Reindeer Section and The Weepies. This compilation of artists will keep me going through the week.
I might have to get rid of the kitten if I don't get better. There is so much more work to do for everything. I shouldn't be blogging. Alison, Stephanie and Amy are all getting ready to graduate. Corinne has stitches and is trying to travel to Dartmouth this weekend. David has so much school and a 30 hour/week job and is looking for a home in Charleston this summer. Jones is sick with something. Lou is busy trying to grow in a forward fashion while getting over plane travels and preparing for the mannatech project. (Tell me - Why is food not enough? And how exactly do glyconutrients work in your body?) Girls in group are having stressful weeks. So many people with so many troubles. I couldn't write them all if tried. Praying. Pay it forward, folks.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Dear Spring Semester,
You're giving me insomnia.
It's nothing too personal,
but thanks for nothing.
Yours Truly, Erin G. Ellis
I need you to hurry.
But please be kind
because last year,
you kind of sucked.
Hearts & Stars, Erin
Monday, March 27, 2006
And please note that's one more person who loves The Weepies. thank you very much magic music box for your magic powers. take it from me. (we've got a good life.)
I have to study now - Hotel Management Test and Accounting Exam 3 tomorrow. Boo. And an Access project - a program which is evidently not on my computer already. Boo.
P.S. Marty doesn't like going to the vet. But he is healthy. *phew*
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Sunday... This morning Jones made breakfast for us - omelets, french toast sticks and orange slices. A great way to begin the day.
I spent the rest of the day listening to The Weepies (thanks to Jones) and looking through almost one thousand photos (also thanks to Jones). It was a giant ploy to get myself to procrastinate. This means tomorrow will suck.
Today, I cried. And I wasn't expecting it at all. It was over something I didn't know I was thinking about and I didn't know it bothered me so much. It's also something I have no control over. Alison saw it. I think it worried her. But it's ok.
I like this picture. I do not, however, like pears. Go figure.
(You are the hope that keeps me trusting.)
I really enjoyed worship tonight. Music is a really important part of how I communicate - even to God and tonight the songs made it so easy. I even got to worship with the warmth of a blanket. Comfortable. That's how I felt. I liked it.
Tomorrow, little Marty goes to the vet. I'm scared they're going to tell me something is wrong with him. And I'm scared he's going to cry a bunch when they give him shots. This will not be a fun experience. Kind of like when he grabs me with his claws. Like he's doing now. Ow. Not cute.
For my musically and artistically inclined friends - You are part of the good in the world. Don't ever stop... "The only way to drive out bad culture is to create good culture. We need to recognize that artistic talent is a gift from the Lord - and that developing that talent is the only way to create good culture." C. S. Lewis
Going to bed. Living in a dream, walking in between sunset and sunrise.