Wednesday, March 29, 2006

i wish we could open our eyes

I went to bed early last night - feeling like crap. I woke up this morning feeling like more rested crap. I think it's because I let the kitten sleep in my bed.

I'm so glad that yesterday is over. The rest of the semester is still going to suck, but yesterday I had two important tests, an access project and three hours of sleep. And it was cold and rainy and Gilmore Girls was a two hour marathon of reruns.

I'm so scared that I failed one of my tests which is completely unacceptable because I already failed one test in that class. And it's a major course. And I don't fail things. I just don't. My gpa is always good which in turn makes me good. I am my grades. (Or at least in my head, I am.) My mom and I had this conversation yesterday...

Mom: Erin, no one ever told you that you had to be perfect.
Me: Well, no one ever told me that it was ok to fail either.
Mom: I did. You just weren't listening!
Me: Oh. Well... Tell me again, then.

I still don't want to fail. It will be detrimental to my mental health.

I'm a modern girl, but i fold in half so easily when i put myself in the picture of success. I could learn world trade or try to map the ocean.

Alison and I got an apartment. The one on Henderson Street. Woot. We still need one subleaser (female) for my room this summer. Any takers?

I get a bit confused every spring -- I'm listening to lots of Death Cab, Rilo Kiley, Reindeer Section and The Weepies. This compilation of artists will keep me going through the week.

I might have to get rid of the kitten if I don't get better. There is so much more work to do for everything. I shouldn't be blogging. Alison, Stephanie and Amy are all getting ready to graduate. Corinne has stitches and is trying to travel to Dartmouth this weekend. David has so much school and a 30 hour/week job and is looking for a home in Charleston this summer. Jones is sick with something. Lou is busy trying to grow in a forward fashion while getting over plane travels and preparing for the mannatech project. (Tell me - Why is food not enough? And how exactly do glyconutrients work in your body?) Girls in group are having stressful weeks. So many people with so many troubles. I couldn't write them all if tried. Praying. Pay it forward, folks.

2 comments:

lou said...

I think you can, I think you can, I think you can...

3 more weeks, baby!!

Love you!!

Anonymous said...

food is enough - most people just don't eat the right kinds and quantities of food