Saturday, November 16, 2013

I have a morning routine-ish. It's more that I'm not willing to jump immediately out of bed. (Even though I slept TEN HOURS last night.) So, I grab my trusty macbook air, check email, FB, and message Nate if I know he's awake. This has lasted an hour today. I feel like so much happens while I'm sleeping that I need time to catch up on it.

I read a lot of blogs - although I recently shed a lot from my feedly because I wasn't actually reading them. Partially because there is no time. Partially because I still don't love using feedly. Partially because they no longer apply to me. And, when something is taking up space in your life, it should be something you're passionate about - a blog, a job, a person, etc.

Anyway, yesterday I read this article about being crazy rather than boring. It struck a chord with me because I've been crying a lot recently over a lot of different things and I wonder if that's normal, if I'm crazy or does it even matter? I'm in the middle of struggle of do I continue to speak up or keep my mouth shut?

"I'd rather be this girl, the girl who is committed to forgive, and love, and move, and act, and let go, push forward and believe even when it doesn't make sense to believe; even if it means being disappointed, even if it means being hurt, again and again."

But honestly, both sides are difficult. It's not easy being crazy. And it's not easy being quiet. I also wonder, is being crazy being selfish? Is being quiet just being weak?

I would love to know what you all think on this subject - comment, email, text, etc.



beth said...

This is interesting. I was pondering a similar thought earlier today. Silence- is it strength or weakness? I'm torn between it being both in my life right now. Should I be putting out more energy and love- throwing caution to the wind even though doing so has hurt me before? By being quiet am I being strong and protecting myself, or being weak by not allowing vulnerability. Or is it both? Or something else?

Katie Gandy said...

I think crazy has a really negative connotation here. She is normal, not crazy.