i must remember to pick up this album soon. maybe next paycheck.

this is how my day went when i played it back over in my head...

sleeping. yogurt. peaches. hemp seeds. vitamins. coffee. soy milk. irish cream. caramel. skim latte. hot. iced. (it ended up a hot skim latte with 1/2 pump caramel - if you were wondering) work. customers. candles. black amethyst. octagon. leaves. fall. scarves. hoodies. pumpkin spice. cider. crisp air. apples. doughnuts. more coffee. tired. hungry. smoothie. shea cashmere. wall move. pizza. chinese. pizza. chinese. pizza. michelob ultra amber. two slices of greek pizza. closing. store support. wait. wait. wait. coffee. driving. texting. pizza. tony. pizza. dogs. cherry garcia fro yo. email. texting. cleaning. pineapple orchid. sour skittles. blogging.

hydration. finish cleaning. make a to do list. read. sleep.

i like this blog. and this song. and i'm excited for fall.

I'm realizing there are things I want in my life that I need to start taking action toward even if I can only take baby steps right now. An IRA is not enough, but it was a good start. Now I have to do something else... Slow and steady wins the race. Hmph.

Tonight, someone asked me where I saw myself in 5-10 years and I had no idea what to tell them. This was the first question of a three hour conversation.

So, now I'm thinking about lots of things. Yep. Good. Bad. All those things.

Btw. I'm reading Harry Potter and listening to the new Mute Math album.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe

you were my world this tuesday morning

hindsight is scary at times, but such a beautiful view.

today had good things and bad things.

now i'm standing on the outside staring into daylight.

Sometimes life is best at 7am with iced coffee, a warm blueberry muffin and a friend.

turns out not where but who you're with...

so my laptop is playing dead.

or it could actually be dead. i'm not sure.

mj and steve have been so kind to let me borrow one of theirs until i get my shit together. so thank you to them.

i saw post grad tonight with rachel. it was good. and cute. and kind of made me think about my life. and what i'm doing. and what i'm not doing. who i'm spending my time on. and who i'm wasting my time on.

and about my quirkiness. i'm weird, man. i hope someone finds it endearing one day.

all very interesting topics.

it's been a long weekend with some excellent highlights (dinner for charles's birthday) and some crappy stories, but i'm too tired for specifics.

i'm going to bed now. gotta get up super early for coffee.

... that really matters... we'll make the best of what's around.

today i took a cycle class, cardio pump, and piyo. then i baked brownies and ran errands. then i worked from 1:30-10. now i'm doing payroll. and probably watching an episode of true blood. and tomorrow i'll repeat (most of) it.

it was productive. and i am exhausted. but content.

the end.

ps. happy birthday charles and rachael! you're fantastic.

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and everybody only wants to fight

You're up against never being right.

stars - today will be better, i swear!
the decemberists - the engine driver

Sometimes, I'm afraid that I will just feel nothing after all the things that have happened - that nothing but a shell of myself will exist - because there is only so much a person can take before they become numb.

I hope that's not true though. I don't think it is.

When the worries of the world hold your feet and there's little left to believe in.

i dig electronic. this plays at work every so often and i love it.

I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can’t see from the center. - Kurt Vonnegut

“I like being on my own. Relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in the one of the most beautiful cities in the world, we might as well have fun when we can, and save the serious stuff for later.” - 500 Days of Summer

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“I don’t expect the great lengths; I just expect them to keep up with the details and the small things. I can get by on a text message—a lot of girls can. That’s all we want is someone to text us in the morning and say, ‘Hi! Hope you have a fantastic day!’ And then call us as night. Super-simple. It doesn’t take yachts; it doesn’t take big flashy things. It takes just knowing that they’re there and care.” - Katy Perry (on guys & romantic gestures in Seventeen)

I wear a Size 8. Thank you.

and now i cannot stop pacing

You know those moments where you feel like you've become the worst version of yourself?

That's how I feel right now.

I woke up too late to take my friend to the airport this morning. And yesterday I was half an hour late to my coffee date with some friends.

I've become unreliable.

Fuck.

There's an episode of Gilmore Girls like this:

CHRISTOPHER: Where were you?
LORELAI: Fruitlessly trying to rectify a ratty transgression.
CHRISTOPHER: Oh. You want some coffee?
LORELAI: No.
CHRISTOPHER: What?
LORELAI: What?
CHRISTOPHER: Well, I know you well enough to know that when you say no to coffee, especially in the morning, all is not right in Whoville.
LORELAI: Very astute.

(There's an episode of Gilmore Girls for everything.)

my birthday wish list:

1. influence by mka olsen
2. a new phone (ex. Samsung Gravity or something with a full keyboard & camera compatible with TMobile)
3. cook yourself thin
4. a cold brew coffee maker
5. the oc on dvd
6. cash (to pay off credit cards)
7. gift cards (for retail therapy - target, gap, express, whole foods, itunes)
8. and gas cards
9. movie tickets to see post grad
10. yet another fm transmitter

please and thank you.

and i wish you the best

I like it when a flower or a little tuft of grass grows through a crack in the concrete. It’s so fuckin’ heroic. - George Carlin

things about coffee

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