249, a photo by julianbialowas on Flickr.

The Mountain from Terje Sorgjerd on Vimeo.

Everything I want is just Him, to get lost in Him, to feel His love and more and more of this dazzling that He does. I wonder at His beautiful system and how it feels better than anything I could choose or invent for myself." - Donald Miller, Through Painted Deserts

i think i have writer's block.

blog block. haha.

or i just haven't had the time.

i'm sure i'll be over it soon.

i'm glad i'm friends with the people i'm friends with.
i'm glad i'm not friends with the people i'm not friends with.

i like gossip girl, but not actual gossip.

and i would like to stop hearing about people's personal business.

ok. thanks.

my life is fine.
nothing is wrong.
not technically.


but, for some reason, i've been feeling "off" and i'm not sure why.


does anybody know what i mean?


i've been unusually frustrated by people recently. and i don't feel happy. i'm still outgoing and optimistic, but i'm not happy. i'm usually happy. i guess i'm not unhappy, but i'm definitely not happy. if you asked me i was doing well, i would say yes. if you asked me if i was happy, i would say no.


i read through some old blogs and i think i was happy in them. or at least ambitious. i think i need a goal. i'm happier when i'm working toward something. i dunno. perhaps i lack motivation.


“It’s true that while ambition creates fear, it also creates the story. But it’s a good trade, because as soon as you point toward a horizon, life no longer feels meaningless. And suddenly there is risk in your story and a question about whether you’ll make it. You have a reason to get out of bed in the morning.” - Donald Miller


please note, this is no cause for concern. if you have any insight/suggestions, then i'd love to hear from you, but please don't worry about me. ok? ok! this is just my little venting area...


xo.

i have a hard time drawing lines professionally and personally, i think. or maybe i don't and other people do. i'm not sure.

some of the people i work with are nice and i really enjoy them and would like to be fb friends with and hang out with outside of work. some of the other people i work with are negative and i probably wouldn't benefit from being friends with them outside of work.

so do i pick some and not the others? do i not befriend any of them and just keep the friends i have? or do i befriend them all and take the risks of having all of my personal life out there?

decisions. decisions. any insight?