sometimes i don't think i will ever be able to have the life i want. i will never live alone or travel long distances or figure out what i want to do with my life or get a salary and have health insurance. i will never find someone who's attention i can keep for more than a few dates or (at best) a few years. i will never find someone who can't imagine their life without me. dreams fade. people go away.
life is very disheartening sometimes. and it's not just me.