but i'm warning you we're growing up

'cause together is what gives our days their worth

I don't blog because I don't know what to say.

There are a lot of things going on in my life. Lots of work. Lots of activities. Lots of musings and emotions. But it seems hard for me to put all together and into sentences and onto my blog page.

I've been drinking a lot of green tea. I finally made friends with the British boy in the kiosk across from me. And I have a new roommate who lives across the hall from me. I don't have hamsters anymore. I'm too nice to some of my employees. I went to a bar by myself to see I Nine play. I met a guy who lives in Chicago and likes to buy drinks and dance. I didn't go to a gala because I was all dressed up with no one to go with. I raced for the cure yesterday and I cried. I saw Faith in Charlotte and we stopped in Cola because I had a longing. I bought a book on the life and legend of James Dean. I saw Dan in Real Life. I want to see Across the Universe. I have a lot of new cds: Matchbox Twenty, Jose Gonzalez, Iron and Wine, Maria Taylor, The Cat Empire and Radiohead. I want the new Jimmy Eat World. There's a white german shepherd in our backyard. I had tangerine tofu last night and watched my roommate, Rob, eat it and I was so proud. I spend Moe's Mondays with Kt. I watched Bend it Like Beckham last night and was amazed by Jonathan Rhys Meyer's facial structure. And then I remembered he's in that new movie August Rush (comes out November 21).

I didn't go to church today because I've been averaging three hours of sleep a night. I miss Columbia. And I miss my boyfriend. And I can't wait to go to NOLA this week. But I do love it here. And what I'm doing. I just have to not focus on what I'm missing.

Listen to Melissa Etheridge - I Run for Life and Ben Jelen - Pulse.

That's all I can think of right now.

and i won't waste a minute without you

Derek: You left without me. And now you're not talking to me. I was a jerk. Sometimes boyfriends can be jerks. Doesn't mean you stop talking to them. You get that I'm saying I'm sorry right?

Meredith: You yelled at me for no reason, then you walked away, and now you show up here.

Derek: Of course I showed up. Why wouldn't I? You don't trust me?

Meredith: I do.

Derek: Ok well this is how it works. You fight sometimes, and somebody apologizes.

Meredith: Well how am I supposed to know that?

Derek: You've never done this before.

Meredith: No, I've never done this before.

Derek: Hmm. Ok, alright. Well this is, from now on, you can expect that I'm gonna show up. Even if I yell. Even if you yell. I'm always going to show up. Ok?

Meredith: Ok... You are going to make an excellent Chief.

[this is my favorite McDreamy and Meredith moment. it's terribly sweet. i just watched it again tonight and decided to share.]

if you are chilly, here take my sweater

Gnocchi is better at Bocci's than it is from a box. Even if you doctor it up.

Speaking of doctors... I have Grey's Anatomy Season 3 on dvd. It might be one of the best gifts ever.

I bought roses for myself. They're pretty. They accidentally helped me clog the garbage disposal. I helped fix the garbage disposal. My roses are still pretty.

I'm waiting. For lots of things. One of them being the new Radiohead album to be available for download.

I like fall. I like rain. I don't like humidity.

I like pumpkins. And pumpkin flavored things. And cinnamon. And cinnamon flavored things. I like our new posters at the store, but I don't like making them.

I employ a lot of people right now. I'm waiting for that to work out.

I'm waiting for them to call me with questions tonight. I don't mind because I like them.


I'm waiting for Target to become sacred again. I miss it.

I'm waiting to find Mr. Potato Head hiding in my store.

I'm waiting for the end of the month so I can go to New Orleans. (I paid off the plane tickets today!)

I'm waiting for my headache to go away.

I'm waiting for Rob and Laurie to come home next week.

I'm waiting. waiting. waiting. For lots of things.

I miss Columbia. And I miss Matt. A lot.

And I like (most of) my customers. They're funny. And nice. And generous. And flattering. It's a good thing I have going on with them. I miss them sometimes, too.

'Cause I love you more than I could ever promise. And you take me the way I am.